It's hard to rely on others.

Since having my knee replacement surgery, I've had to rely on my husband for a lot of things that I can't do for myself. It's really difficult for me because it reminds me of when I was in a bad car accident in 1991. Back then, the only people I had to rely on were my children and some sweet people from our church. I hated to ask my children to do anything. The oldest was just barely 15 at that time and the others ranged in age down to two. They ended up shouldering a lot of responsibility they didn't need to shoulder. 

My husband has been willing to help me do just about anything and everything I need him to do, but there are some things I don't want to ask him to do. Simple things, like cutting your toenails, can be embarrassing when having to rely on others. So I got on Amazon and looked for something that would help. 

There were several options but I found one pair of long handled toenail scissors. It came with a diamond edge nail file and looked like the perfect thing to meet my needs. While he was at the store yesterday, I've bent over as far as I could and used the long handled nail scissors to trim the toenails on my left foot. It was very challenging, I will admit, but I got it done. I was happy not to have to ask him to do it. 

It's hard to be in handicap mode and have to rely on others. Nobody wants to have to ask for help with things like that. I've always been self-sufficient. Sometimes I think God allows little trials like these to see what we're made of and if we'll be humble enough to ask for help when we need it. I think He's still teaching me to let others do the things I can't do. 

Cutting toenails may not be humiliating to some, but it is to me. I'd rather do my own any day than rely on someone else. Maybe I'm being silly, but that's the way I feel. I hope you're never put into this type of position.