Unrest

Do you feel it? I do. There's a stirring in my soul, a feeling of unrest that won't go away no matter what I do to try and quash it. It's been going on for several weeks now and I don't think it's related to all the political hullabaloo. I'm not one to watch all that junk, my husband is. 

No, it's something deeper. It's almost a spiritual stirring. I've been praying and asking God to reveal what the issue might be, but He hasn't. 

Maybe it's just adjusting to this new time in our lives or perhaps it's the uncertainty of the future, how I wish I knew. Getting older could be part of it or not being able to spend as much time with the kids or grand kids, or it could be a combination of all of it. 

I try to stay busy so I don't think about it. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. Most days I paint just for something to do and when I run out of canvases, I read. I have so many books, I could start my own library. The only thing that seems to help is being out in nature. 

When I'm out in the woods, I feel unhindered and free. I love feeling the soft breeze surrounding me as I walk beneath tall trees. I try to be observant and see the things most people miss, like a freshly fallen feather or an insect wing. 

My youngest granddaughter loves nature just about as much as I do, and I'm so thankful for that. She could tell you just about anything about animal habitats or insect bodies. She's smart as a whip and studies to absorb every fact she can. And that's why I find myself doing crazy, ol' Grandma things like saving bird's nests or picking up dead Cicadas for her to see when she comes to visit. 

We always have fun when she comes. She has no idea how much joy she brings to my life, but she's growing up and will soon not want to do crafty things with her Gigi. She'll prefer watching a TV show or something else. It's hard to watch them grow up and away. 

Maybe that's the thing that's stirring - the realization that no matter how hard I try, I can't keep things the way they are. Everything and everyone is in a constant state of change, the only constant is God. The Bible says He never changes, He's the same yesterday, today, and forever. I'm thankful for that. 

My hubby keeps telling me to take one day at a time, but that's hard for a type A person to do. I'm trying. Maybe tomorrow will be a little easier. 

Oh yeah, speaking of unrest, the announcement came today that Biden will be stepping down soon. I wonder if anyone else is beginning to wonder what the future holds and how all this will work out? 

None of us can truly know what the future holds, but believers know Who holds the future! If you're feeling discombobulated or in a season of your own unrest, take a deep breath. This too shall pass. (Or so I'm told.)