Twelve years ago, I heard the words no one ever wants to hear: You have cancer. In that moment, life split into two distinct chapters—before cancer and after cancer. Nothing has ever looked quite the same since that horrible day. Every year since my diagnosis, I've celebrated life.
Celebrating the Early Years of Survival
In those early years, the celebrations were big. I wasn't sure I would make it to the next anniversary, so each one felt monumental. My family gathered around tables filled with laughter and gratitude. Many photos were taken. Cakes were decorated. Hugs lingered a little longer. We celebrated not just survival, but possibility.
I remember reaching the five-year mark, a milestone often viewed as the gold standard in the cancer world. People cheered, doctors smiled, and friends breathed easier. It was as though I had crossed an invisible finish line, but something interesting happened after that.
As the years passed, the celebrations became smaller. Family members, relieved that I had done well, naturally shifted their focus back to everyday life. The urgency faded for them; after all, I was okay—or at least, I looked okay. My cancerversary didn't take the same prominence in their lives, and often I'd have to remind them it had come again.
The Hidden Reality of Cancer Survivorship
What many people don't understand is that survivorship doesn't erase the experience of cancer. Even years later, there is often a quiet awareness tucked into the corners of our minds. A strange ache can trigger questions. A routine scan can stir anxiety. A doctor's appointment can awaken memories we'd rather leave behind. The fear of recurrence never completely disappears.
I don't dwell on it. I don't allow it to steal today's joy, but I acknowledge that it's there. That's one of the reasons I continue to celebrate every cancer-free anniversary—because I know what it means.
I know what it is to sit in waiting rooms holding my breath. I know what it feels like to hear medical terminology become part of everyday conversation. I know what it means to face uncertainty and keep moving forward anyway. Surviving cancer changes you.
Learning to Treasure Ordinary Days
It teaches you that tomorrow isn't guaranteed. It strips away the illusion of unlimited time. It causes you to notice ordinary miracles—the warmth of sunlight on your face, the sound of your grandchildren laughing, a meal shared with people you love, or another birthday candle to blow out.
Twelve years is a long time to live after cancer, and I am profoundly grateful for every single one of those years. So when should a cancer survivor stop celebrating? My answer is simple: never. Not because we're living in fear, but because we're living with appreciation.
Celebration isn't denial. It isn't pretending that the difficult parts never happened. It is acknowledging that they did happen and that somehow, through treatment, tears, setbacks, prayers, determination, and grace, we are still here.
Why Some People Don't Understand Cancerversaries
Some people may not understand that, especially when you share each milestone on social media. I've had both positive and negative reactions there. Old friends from high school have wondered why I still mark the date. They've commented with things like, "Haven't you moved on by now?"
The truth is, I have moved on. I've built a life beyond cancer. I've embraced joy, pursued new dreams, and created beautiful memories. But moving on doesn't mean forgetting.
Cancer became part of my story, but it did not become the end of it. And if one day the disease returns, as it sadly does for some survivors, I will face that challenge when and if it comes. I pray it never does. I do my best to trust God with the unknowns that remain beyond my control.
Every Anniversary Is Worth Celebrating
In the meantime, I refuse to postpone joy. I will celebrate the clear scans and anniversaries. I will celebrate ordinary days that once felt so uncertain because surviving a battle we never chose to fight takes courage. It takes determination. It takes resilience. It requires getting up on days when fear whispers loudly and hope feels fragile.
Cancer survivors understand that life itself is worth commemorating. Perhaps that's what survivorship really means. It isn't simply counting the years since diagnosis. It's learning to live fully within those years. It's choosing gratitude over bitterness. It's finding reasons to laugh again. It's recognizing that every new season, every milestone, every ordinary Tuesday is a gift.
So this year, I will celebrate twelve years of being cancer-free. I will probably take more pictures than necessary. I'll gather with the people I love. I'll reflect on how far I've come and offer prayers of thanksgiving for the journey. I'll more than likely have a big slice of cake. I'll do all these things not because I am afraid, not because I am stuck in the past, but because I understand something cancer taught me long ago: life is precious, and milestones matter.
There Is No Expiration Date on Gratitude
If you're a fellow survivor wondering whether it's still acceptable to celebrate five years, ten years, twenty years, or beyond, let me assure you that there is no expiration date on gratitude.
You don't need permission to honor the road you've traveled or the strength it took to get here. Celebrate in whatever way feels meaningful to you. Celebrate loudly or quietly. Celebrate with a party or with a whispered prayer. Put it all over social media—but celebrate, because every anniversary represents another year of hope, another year of memories made, another year of choosing life despite knowing how fragile it can be.
As for me, if God grants me another year to celebrate, I intend to do exactly that—with no apologies.
No comments:
Post a Comment