Monday, July 1, 2019

Stop Talking!

Ever have a conversation with your brain? I have. I do almost every single day. In fact, that's part of the problem. I can never get my brain to stop working. Day in and day out, my brain is always working. Random thoughts bombard my mind continually. It's getting to the point that it's interrupting my sleep. Either I don't sleep until the wee hours of the morning, or I find myself waking after only a few hours of sleep. Both scenarios suck.

This morning, as it was pitch black outside I found myself awake. Not knowing what time it was, I crept out of bed to keep from waking my husband. Feeling my way into the dining room, I sat at the table and fumbled around to find my Bible. When I can't sleep, I read and my Bible is my book of choice.

Using my flashlight, I opened my Bible. It fell open to the book of 2 Corinthians, chapter 5. As I read the chapter, I stopped on verse 21: "God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." That verse is powerful and has always been a good reminder of how much God loves us and wanted us to be reconciled to Him.

I sat and read my Bible for a couple of hours, taking notes and cross referencing scriptures. After I prayed, I heard stirring. My husband was waking up. Sleepy eyed, he came into the living room and stared at me. "What are you doing up at this hour?," he said. I told him I had no idea. He urged me to go back to sleep but I explained I was wide awake.

After he went to bed, I went into my office to make notes. So many thoughts were coming in, I figured if I wrote them down and got them out of my head, I might be able to rest, but that didn't work. I'd download a few thoughts thinking I was clearing my head when twice as many as I'd written pushed their way in. Finally, I gave up and started my day with household chores. Doing laundry at that ungodly hour was insane and I'm beginning to wonder if I might have some sort of health issue. Do others struggle with getting their brains to rest?

This can't continue or I'll be a walking zombie. I must find a solution. Please keep me in your prayers as I work to figure this out.


  1. Hi - I just read an article you wrote in January 2016 - The Good Girl. I am on anastrazole for a year and beyond depressed at the alopecia it is causing. I believe i had a similar cancer as yours - Stage IIB, Her+. I read how you opted out of taking a hormone blocker. i am thinking of stopping it but am nervous about it. please let me know what your experience was. thanks

    1. Ariele, I'm sorry I'm a little behind on my blog because of the pandemic and I've missed a few comments and I apologize for not having responded sooner. If you'd like to send me your email address, I'll be glad to share my cancer fighting regimen with you. I chose not to take the hormone blocker and after consulting with a naturopath, found some natural remedies that have worked for me. This July, I celebrated my 6th cancerversary! Thank you for reading my post. Let me know if you'd like my info on fighting cancer more naturally. God bless you!

  2. Hi - I read earlier that you stopped the anastrazole because of hair loss. I am thinking of doing the same but am afraid. Can you please tell me your experience with that?


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